Now what?

Sitting in the bus... My fingers are slowly melting back to normal temperature so I can type... I'm not one to complain much (as you could tell from my previous posts), but I sometimes wonder how crazy or desperate our ancestors must have been to establish themselves here.... Frozen stuff falling from the sky, so we must invent large mechanical trucks to push or pick it up so we can move around... Temperatures so low that this mechanic we invented to move around won't even work... Staying outside for too long, without adequate protection can burn your skin in a very cold way (I would rather get my butt burned on a sunny beach... but I would still wear protection anyway, I admit it... as I would if I meet someone interesting this weekend, but that is a whole other story, got it? ;-)...

Fridays... I had a Facebook status last week stating that Fridays wouldn't be the same anymore... And I knew everybody would get it wrong... And it is kind of the same this week, but for reverse reasons... Last week was because I had my kids for the weekend, and so did the lady I started seeing, so we were not going to see each other for sure for the whole weekend... But today, I dropped my kids to school this morning, and their mom will pick them up tonight and I may not see them until next Wednesday, when I pick them up at school... But I just had a 9 days streak with them, so a little 5 days break is kind of welcome... But yet... It's not the same... You know... if not... read my previous post... You'll get it...

I don't have any plans yet for the weekend... Might go see a movie, alone, or with a friend maybe... I know I want to work on my novel and start the publishers hunt. I will do some research to identify which one(s) I should target first... I'm up to chapter 15 or 18 (page 256 of 315)... I should be able to finish this weekend... Just a few week later than the deadline I had given myself, but it's OK... I had good exciting reasons for not finishing on time... And it was well worth it... :-)

Also, I want to clear my mind of some past experiences and also stop thinking too much about the future (I have a very hard time with that, I lived most of my life preparing for what was coming my way)... I need to live more in the present tense... I may have talked about that in a previous post, I don't remember, but it's OK, because I want to stop living in the past too anyway (though I didn't do too much of that in the past either, I'm not one to hold grudge or be nostalgic, at least not too much, but I still have very found memories that I cherish, anyway, I'm derailing again, let's close this way too long parenthesis, with a smile :-)...

So... As the title of the post say... Now what?... I don't know... I have no clue... No expectations... A few hopes and wishes here and there... But no expectations what so ever... I have a few friends that would love to help me go trough this, and I really appreciate it... I just need to identify how far I'm willing to go and in which direction (cause, even when we are not thinking about the future, even in the present tense, we must decide what we want to do now, what step we want to take, where to put our feet... well... in front of us, of course, but which direction do we want to face)... OK, I'm losing you now, I can feel it (maybe, I'm losing a bit of myself too ;-)...

One direction I know I want to take this winter is south... Again, I will conclude by looping back to my introduction... But it is not just because of the recent cold wave that I want to go down south, I started thinking about this trip while I was in Cuba last year with my kids and my parent... While walking on the beautiful site where we were (Playa Pesquero, near Holguin), and watching the beautiful landscape (as well as the beautiful bodies filling it :-P), I decided then, that I would go down south again next year (which is now this year), but without my kids... I have a strange feeling I already told you about that... But I can't confirm, cause... I'm sitting in the bus, enjoying the heat of my laptop battery on my... lap... So no Internet connection to go check back... Ho well...

BYE

MAD

P.S.: And don't ever forget... to have fun... whether it's hot or it's cold, it's yes or it's no... ;-)
(damn, my kids corrupted me with this Katy Perry thingy... Ho well.. :-)