Making up... :-)

Salut,

sitting in the bus, in front of a very cute young lady... putting on makeup... Don't really know why though... she doesn't really need it... But the older woman that just sat besides her did a good job at hiding her age this morning... and her large sun glasses help a bit too...

I didn't have anything specific to say this morning... But I wanted to talk... so here I am... as more people get in the bus... and more makeup gets applied to that cutie's face... It's interesting to witness the transformation... live... ;-) She's doing a pretty good job... Adding intensity, yet staying subtle enough... so far...

Maybe I should try that... Makeup!... Actually, we were talking about that over lunch at work yesterday... Someone asked me which lipstick color would suite me best ;-)... Someone said pink (cause I sometimes wear a pink wig... for fun :-)... But I said black, just to see their face as I said it :-)

OK, she's done, and she also put some large sun glasses to hide half of the nice work she did... Her lipstick is pink... with shiny little sparkles in it... A little too much for my taste... too bad, cause she has very nice lips... Ho well... way too young for me anyway... As most cuties I look at in the bus... It's just for fun anyway... You know me, right? Nothing wrong with just looking... and commenting on a public blog... Hahahaha... :-)

Hey, I think I told you I was finally going down south soon... My first trip to the beach without my kids, since... Since I had kids (and my eldest is 11 and a half)... I'll bring my camera, so I can show you pictures of nice girls in bikini... I already have a few here... :-)

We're crossing the bridge now and the bus windows are way dirtier than the train windows... Anyway, the view here isn't as interesting as the one we have from the train bridge... I guess I will have much nicer views in about 10 days from now... And no, I'm not just talking about bikinis (though they are an important part of the view)... If you got a chance to see some of the pictures I take, you will notice that I'm not only after female bodies, I also like nature, architecture, and people in general... and if you read a few of my posts, you know I'm not that superficial... you know that I think the human being is a very intriguing yet so interesting piece of art, as much within itself as what it let show outside...

So I take a vow here to spend the rest of my life trying to understand more and more human nature and keep being amazed by it.

BYE
MAD
P.S.: the older woman has removed her sun glasses... nice eye color, but not quite my type of face... and no... it is not just about the age... The cutie have closed her eyes behind her shades so I can take a better look at the work she did... and her extraordinary lips... With too much lipstick unfortunately...

Radio silence

Salut,

sitting in the train, watching the panorama through the dirty windows where the bright sun has no mercy for all kinds of stains. There are big piles of snow outside... We had some more over the weekend... But I finally booked that trip down south that I was thinking about for almost a year now... I wasn't too keen on going alone, and there is no Mrs. MadlyMAD these days... So I asked a friend to join me... I was hesitating a bit because it is a female friend and I'm still looking for Mrs. MadlyMAD (no, it's not her, and it can't be her, we clarified that already).

I wonder how a new Mrs. MadlyMAD prospect would take it if I met her before I leave down south with someone else (I know, there isn't much chances, since we leave in less than two weeks, but still, it's a possibility... And you know The dreamer :-).... What would she feel if I get to tell her: "I find you very interesting and would like to get to know you better, but I'm going to the beach with a very good looking woman, see you next week... BYE... MAD...".... Ho well... :-)

Last week, I had a very interesting prospect, that new book I was telling you about... We had a few very interesting email exchange... I started on Monday at lunch time... She answered on Tuesday dinner time... So I sent another one on Wednesday bedtime, and she answered again on Friday morning... breakfast time ;-)... And I felt so enthusiastic, that I answered on the same day at dinner time... and got a very positive answer a little over an hour after... So I replied again before going to bed... And then... radio silence since then... Weird...

I have no clue what happened... Did I say something wrong? Did she get hit by a bus? Something happened to her kids? She met the man of her dreams over the weekend? I scared her? She thought I was an alien trying to abduct her to do experiments on her gorgeous little body (though I have only seen pictures, we never got to meet in "real life", but you know I have a very fertile imagination, right?). Or maybe she caught Alzheimer while helping an older woman cross the street? Didn't pay her Internet bills? Was actually abducted by aliens?... OK... I'll stop here... :-)

We are about to cross the bridge now (no, not me and her, the train ;-)... And I love the view of the sun climbing up the sky across the car bridge over the St-Lawrence river... A very cool sight... Even through dirty stained train Windows... :-)

So life is good... We have hopes... Deceptions... Thrilling exchanges... and then radio silence... Big piles of snow falling from the sky and then our toes get to play in the wet sand and salty water... A drink in our hand and surrounded by beautiful women in bikinis... The sun keeps rising and setting on a regular basis... My heart keeps beating... Waiting for another one to beat in sync with... But I will settle for nothing less... than the real thing... So I will be patient...

till next time...

Have fun!

BYE
MAD

A new book...

Salut,

sitting in the train, with a marvelous landscape outside... We had about 10cm of snow during the night and the trees are dressed with a superb snow coat.

So how have you been? I have itchy fingers... A post a week is not enough to satisfy my needs... I know this virtual slowdown is a good thing for me... But it's hard... And I must admit... I kind of cheated on you... Yes... I did... In real life, I'm a very faithful guy (even when I knew a loved one was cheating on me, I couldn't resort myself to do the same), but in the virtual world, I think it's OK...

While finishing the story of this previous book I was telling you about, before I got to write the last chapter, I started to write a private blog, that I didn't send to anyone... Like a diary... and it really felt like I was talking to you... So you see... Even if I cheated on you... I was thinking about you (I know, a classic ;-)...

But now, it's over... That book has been put away (and I recently learned that somebody else is reading it, Ho well)... And now, I'm starting a new one... :-)))

Ho... And allow me to step out of the metaphor for a moment, so that I let you know that last night, I finally sent my novel to a publisher... One down... I need to look for more publishers that could be interested in this book now (I mean, the real one :-)... Do you know any?

OK, back into the metaphor...

I was browsing through the Facelibrary, and saw an interesting thumbnail of a book cover (I know we can't judge a book by its cover, but it's all I had)... So I registered for more info about this book... And got it... I was so happy, the book was willing to open itself a little bit for me (which doesn't happen so often in these cold virtual libraries)... So I got to see the high resolution cover, as well as the back sleeve and some other images, and it looked really good (“very” my type of look... eeee... book :-)... So I presented myself as an interested reader, and was privileged enough to receive a prologue of the book that I found really interesting.

So last night, I sent even more info about me as an avid reader (I hope it wasn't too much... you know how verbose I can be :-). And I also requested a bit more info about the content of this very interesting book... Based on the tone and the kind of info I get back (if any), I may risk a request to borrow this book from the library this weekend... And get to see it in the real world... real life... out there... where trees wear beautiful white robes... :-)

De Snowstorm Mid-dec-2007

BYE
MAD... not as verbose today... but in a very good mood...

The end of a chapter

Salut,

   sitting in the bus, typing this using offline Gmail... this is pretty cool... did you try it?...

   Sitting in the last seat at the back of the bus... I usually sit at the front... Or in the middle... It is nice to have a new perspective... Especially with that cute young brunette sitting in front of me, working on her term papers... I know, I know, way too young for me... But hey... There is no harm in just looking... And dreaming... Nothing wrong about that, right?... And she really is my type... Ho well... :-)

   It's been a while since I told you about good looking girls in the bus... Some of you may have missed it... Others may be saying now, "Ho No... Not again!"... Whatever... I know you enjoy it anyway... At least, I know I enjoy it... And let's just say... That recently... My mind was elsewhere... Oh, and I don't take the bus as often these days... And... For some reasons... The girls don't look as good in the train... Weird...

   But this is not quite today's subject... Though it is somewhat related (like most of my intros, even though it is rarely on purpose)... You probably noticed the subject: "The end of a chapter"... Some of you may have guessed what I mean by that...

   I wrote about a lady in the past, and I used the book metaphor when I unfortunately had to turn the page on her, and put the book back on the shelf... Well, today, I will continue with this metaphor, while also linking with my previous post about musical feelings, and also remind you that I'm composing music to go with the novel I wrote... just in case you would have forgotten... ;-)

   So I thought that a good way to end this chapter of my life, would be with a new song... A song I wrote about this chapter... A song inspired by what I felt about the main character of this book, a girl that I once, briefly, called, My Lady. If life would be like Hollywood movies, maybe I could hope that this song would bring her back to me (thus the title of the song), but I am not that naive (I am naive, but not that much :-).


Lyrics: http://docs.google.com/Doc...
mp3: http://madzab.com/reviens-moi.mp3
On YouTube: Reviens-moi, Playlist: MAD Sings
   Even when strongly inspired by true feelings, there is always a good part of fiction in song Lyrics. This is what poetry is all about.. Like Hollywood movies, we put much more icing on the cake of reality. Unlike the content of this blog, which is all about real stuff, no fiction here, I really tell you what goes through my head and how I truly feel, and there really is a good looking brunette sitting in front of me :-).

   But anyway, back to the fictional poetry of the song lyrics, I know we can't tell others what to do (except maybe for our kids), and especially not to a woman. ;-)... So I don't expect anything from publishing this song, even though I know she will listen to it... I told you before, I never expect anything from anyone... but me... :-)

   So I would just like to thank her for inspiring me this song... A good song (I hope), that will have captured a great moment that will now live forever through lyrics and music, even if it marks... The end of a chapter...

Enjoy!

BYE
MAD... not sad... Still MAD... Really ;-)

A musical feeling

Salut,

sitting in the bus, with cold fingers... I guess I don't exercise them enough... Because of my virtual slow down I expressed over a week ago... I missed you... Did you miss me?

I'm going through a wide range of emotions and fffffeeeelings these days... You know... The F word that used to intrigue me so much... I think I'm getting much better at it, but I still have so much to learn... There are so many things that just can't be explained... Like the fact that I have always been able to feel some things, but not others... the most obvious one for me is music (slightly ahead of movies).

There are songs that move me so much, I feel them so strongly in my stomach and other parts of my body... Really... And I don't really know why... I guess I have a very close relationship with music, and I'm much more confident with her, so I let myself go more easily... Whereas with people, I used to have so many doubts about myself, and used to be so scared of just being myself... So I would exercise a very tight control over my feelings and emotions... even if it was completely unconsciously...

This is most probably the main reason why I became a musician... I could ffffeeeel it.... And this is also surely the main reason why I became a song writer... This was one of the only way I could express my own.... fffffeeeeeelings.... And even with songs written by others, those songs that I learned to play over the years... With some of them, I had much more success than others, and I think I know why now... These songs were the ones I was ffffeeeeeeling the most...

Here are two examples of music-feeling synchronicity for me... I always loved playing the piano, even when I didn't know how to play it. And for the longest time, the only songs I knew how to play on the piano were my own... The songs that I wrote... And 3 years ago, for some reason, at that specific point in time, that moment in my life, I decided to learn this song:


It is a sad song from Daniel Bélanger, an artist that I really like, even though I used to think that his moods and lyrics were a little too depressive for my own taste, because I'm always full of energy and in a good mood, 100%, most of the time ;-)... But I still get touched by his music... And that song in particular really reached me and I couldn't resist learning to sing it while playing the piano (OK, it also helps that it is not too hard to play ;-)...

OK, so where is the synchronicity I hear you ask... I'm getting there... And no, I'm not talking about the last album by The Police :-).... While I was learning that song, I met a very interesting woman, and I think (I say I think, because then, 3 years ago, I didn't know much about these things), I think I had feelings for her... But I never got to confirm if she had any for me... We never kissed nor held hands, or even mentioned anything about a potential relationship... It just... didn't happen... I always wanted to talk to her about it, but never got to it... And we keep running into each other, once in a while, quickly... And it is never the right time... Maybe... someday... I should send her a link to this post ;-)

Anyway, I'm derailing again, but maybe you start to understand what I mean... This is when I slowly started experimenting with feelings... And I was kind of sad when I guessed that this woman wasn't interested in me as I was in her, and it kind of helped learn that sad song from Daniel Bélanger.

The other example, more recently... If you read some of the post I wrote in the last month or so, you will guess what I'm talking about... I finally found someone for which I had strong feelings, and when I finally got to know that she also had strong feelings for me... I could just... fly... You know what I mean... And while getting to that moment, I was learning a new song on the piano... A song from Elton John, “Your song”...


And I quickly realized that I was unconsciously learning that song for her... And I got to play it for her (while mentioning everything I said in this post, so if she reads it, she already knows about all this, but I felt like sharing it with the rest of you now, I hope it's OK)... So this is why, I say that there is a very close relationship between music and the way I feel... Again, I will refer you to one of my favorite posts on my French blog, the one where I talk about the song I wrote called Fais-moi Rêver and how it helped me, I also talk about how music can help me in general in there.... Go take a look :)

And now... I'm currently working on a new song... The lyrics of this new song are strongly inspired by what I have gone through in the past month or so... But I will keep that for a next post... You'll have to wait to hear more about it...

Have fun!

BYE
MAD,,, Musician And Dreamer,,, :-)