Openeing the book...

Salut,

yesterday, I was very happy to finally get to put my eyes on that new book I was telling you about a few months back... It was "très cool"...

We've been chatting through the virtual tubes that make up this huge thing called Internet. Though it is very useful to meet and exchange with people without leaving your house (let's say you are being held captive by aliens or theorists, you can still flirt, it's pretty cool :-)... But at one point, you need the real thing... The facial expressions, the movements, the pheromones, and all those other things that make us more or less interesting to each others.

While driving there... when I crossed the last bridge... just a few hundred meters before I reach the destination... I felt a little nervous... nervous is good... I used to not be nervous... too confident... and this was not good... But yesterday... I was a little nervous... and I liked it... And I realized that these next few hundred meters... those next few minutes... would be the last one that I live "before" meeting her (yes, a she-book :-)... Before finally seeing in the "real world", that book I've been thinking about for a few months already... Yes... time flies...

So I tried to hold on that nervous feeling for as long as I could... cease the moment... Because it won't come back... once I meet her... Once I open the book.. I won't be able to see her again for the first time anymore... I won't be able to say that I have not opened the book yet... I won't be able to wish for that first moment to finally happen... It will have happened...

But this is not to say that I won't get to wish for the next time I get to put my hands on that great book... to see her in the real world again... And I wish that I will always be able to see her as if it was the first time we saw each other... this is the magic we are all looking for... Right?... But before I actually did meet her, I didn't know if we were going to want to see each other again... So I savored that moment... That nervous feeling... For as long as I could... just in case... :-)

And you know what? We do want to see each other again... We don't know when yet (modern parenting life with split custody can make things so much harder for us... But then again... Being a parent is so cool :-)... At least, we know we both want to... So I guess... It's time to start wishing again... And hope for that next moment... When we get to see each other... and discover more about each other... in the "real world"... :-)

To be continued...

BYE
MAD