I miss you…

Salut,

Sitting in the bus again, just dropped the kids at school for their last day of the year. They were still in their PJs, so excited to eat breakfast at school and spend the whole day in their pajamas…

And me? Well… I was wondering in the parking lot… How do I feel? Or actually… Do I feel?...

No excitement… Yet, I’m not feeling down either. I remember a few years ago, we had about 11 parties spread over 15 days around the xmas break… This year… hum… much more humble… But again, not feeling bad about it… I’m fine… Truly…

Am I boring? I’m not bored though… There are so many things that interest me that I barely have enough time to do half of it. Like writing here, I don’t do it enough, I miss it… But at the same time, I sometimes feel guilty doing it (no, not because of the kind of things I share with you, I have absolutely no guilt about that :-)… I could use this time to complete the re-write of my Novel (I’m up to chapter 7 (out of 18) now, page 120 (out of 303)… I gave myself a deadline for this, I want to complete it before the end of the year…

Not having too many parties (though now that I think about it, I already have 3 scheduled, not counting new years eve that I plan on celebrating alone with my kids, with a nice dinner à trois and a night of games and TV shows, they love that), so, I was saying, not too many parties, so probably enough time to spend on my Novel re-write.

I should also spend some time working on the music I want to put on a CD that I will insert in the book sleeve… I still have a lot of work to do there and it is not progressing fast… But that doesn’t need to be completed before I go publisher hunting again… I think I can present this part of the project as a work in progress…

So, with all this regain of interest and energy of working on my novel, combined with the fact that I recently switched projects at work, so I spend more time learning and getting familiar with the whole thing, I have much less time to post here… And I miss it…

As for the guilt… well… yes I do steal some bus or train time that I could use to work on my Novel… And when I get to the office and polish the post before I publish it online, I steal some time that I could invest in learning more about the architecture and infrastructure of Chrome (a great product by the way, very well done, you should try it :-)…

So there is a little guilt involved in writing here… But I think it is worth it… First, it is a treat for me, and I think I deserve it… Second, I actually train my writing skills… And third… well… if it makes me feel better, then it is worth the time investment while I’m at work, because if I feel better, then I will be more productive…

Ho! What did I just say? Writing here makes me feel better, so I do feel… Wow!... Thanks… It is all because of you… Otherwise, why would I write here if it wouldn’t be to be read by you… So actually, it is not to write here that makes me feel better, it is knowing that you will read me… So when I feel (this word again), when I feel that I don’t post here often, I actually feel that you don’t read me enough… And I miss you…

BYE
MAD… Starting to feel IT!