Dating Detox

Salut,

sitting in a crowded bus, was reading my job emails with one hand and drinking a coffee with the other, while sitting on only half a seat because the big guy sitting besides me is taking one and a half... Ho well... at least he was there before me and didn't just sit on me as some people do sometimes when you're sitting on a small two places seat before they come invade your bubble...

Talking about invading other people's bubble, I have been looking for new friends on Facebook recently... Like I didn't have enough already... So I realized that it is probably a way for me to compensate for the urge I sometimes feel to go back on the Internet Dating scene when I feel too lonely... But I don't want to go back there... I need to find myself first, before I could find someone else to share with... I had someone very special available for me recently, and I couldn't feel it as I should have... As I wanted... As I once did... And it is not the first time it happens... So I need to fix this...

So I decided to invest more in friendships instead... Reconnect with my long time friends that I have neglected for the past few years, because I was too busy either trying to save my marriage, or looking for a new one... And recently... I realized... That I kind of lost myself in there... somewhere....

So I decided to stop dating... But I know myself... I have lived through this before... I remember when I broke up with a girlfriend, thinking that I would be better off alone for a while... and I got back on the Internet dating scene, as soon as I got a kids free weekend after the split...

But not this time... I'm not going back there... And it's funny, because my friend GG (also known as Lili on my French blog) decided that she would try it (Internet Dating), and she's asking me for advice... Interesting twist... the table keeps on turning... :-)

To help myself go through the severance of not browsing Internet Dating sites, looking for the love of my life, I go through Facebook instead, and look for new friends, (e.g., in my existing friends' friends lists). It's kind of like nicotine patches :-)... But, as I was saying, I want to invest more in friendships anyway... And I'm starting to believe that love at first sight is just one way of falling in love. It can also start through a friendship that slowly morphs into love... But in our quick paced modern life, we want it to go quicker, we don't want to wait, we prefer to zap and see what's playing on the other channels... But as was sang before... You can't hurry love... no you just have to wait... :-)

BYE
MAD